less than 8 weeks away

I am real close to being married. What does that do to me? It makes me scared and excited. I have never felt like life was so real. Up till now life is kind of, well if this doesnt work i will try that, or it doesnt matter to much if i do this or that. now it all counts. Life counts. thats all for now.

Enjoying a scotch and a pipe

I recently went to Fados Irish pub to participate in some good old fashion smoking, with a scotch on the rocks and a bit of chips(potato wedges, Irish you know they use different words) but the experience was marred by a waitress who without reason avoided us and visibly favored others. Even though she did nothing "wrong" her lack of interaction made our time irritable. We think it was the fact that we did not drink the waters she gave us, or we picked the table that makes us bad people. Anyway the scotch was good as was the pipe and the company. I wish that I could do that more. Just sit and enjoy people and scotch and my pipe. Every other week or so. I have always wanted to be a "regular" for some odd reason. The only place I am a "regular" is my wendys, and my regular drink is "water, on the rocks".

Got to do something

I need to thank all who have recommended blue like jazz. I have had an awakening of the realness that is God. Lately with all the busyness God has been like my parents. I talk to them once a week, and they help me when they can, they have really influenced my life, but now they don't have much to do with what I do. The past couple of days I have been getting acquainted with God again. Its all been coffee and books and bagels, with music. The sound of ceramic ringing on the glass turntable, the two beeps for 60 seconds of microwaves speeding up the molecules in my coffee so that day after coffee will be enjoyable. The music of mars Volta newly burned from Tim. Wood floors, clean sweatshirt, books, these are what have jump started my relationship with Jesus.

76 days left

ok i have told myself not to count days but i just cant help myself. I am really excited about being married and being done with wedding planning. I sucks that such a wonderful day is fouled up by so many stresses of planning it. I mean if there was some way get married to the same person more than once then you wouldnt have to plan for just one perfect day of your life it would be like doing a big celebration every year. it would make the first one as crazy cause if something didnt work out you could do it the next time.

anyway i really am excited to be married, i wish i didnt count days but...I am just excited.