Wednesday, November 16, 2005

this is real life

Well life is not what you always want, is it. I don know how to deal with stuff sometimes or if i can do anything about stuff that happens. I just dont know what to do. Jens Job is really killing her and i cant do anything about it. I am so helpless. I just want to help. Its not her fault. Why does life get so hard sometimes. I feel like winter is about life changing. I am feeling killed. My friends havent called me for a long time. I sometimes make the effort, and i do a bad job with it, so whats the piont. I dont want to be around people sometimes. I call some friends and they never call back. some people just dont call. I am so pathetic. I am like that little 8 year old crying kid, with his stuffed toy. talking to myself, but this is reality i am a wimp, a boy with out God. If i stop going to him i go back to being a babie. I havent really been reading his book as much as i should. I dont know why not i just dont have a taste for it. God hear me please and let me know you are present even in my absence. God i ask you to help. Be my dependancy. I come to you.

3 comments:

Dan Price said...

miss you man. It's been forever.

janell said...

Cisco! I haven't seen you in a gazillion years! Hopefully I'll see you when I come home for Christmas, although you and Jen probably won't be in Columbus for Christmas huh.? Well, if you two are ever out here in Cal you have another place to stay... your sista's house and ours. :)

Cisco said...

thanks nelly, i am glad to hear you are doing good in LA. and isnt it nice to know you were really meant to move to LA you just needed to move at the right time