The story of a blessing

I went to NM half expecting to get a jeep from my uncle half expecting to buy a bus ticket home. Turns out the jeep I expected to buy was not in "working" order. Longstory short...I drove home in a 94 Jeep grand cherokee. It is the nicest car i have ever owned and newest at that. I thought of getting a special license plate, "nomrhnda". All weekend I was reminded of the values of family. they celebrated in my future wedding with gifts and service. I hope i can do as good as a job as my parents and grandparents with family.

also one more thought. I have stressed out about the money i spent on my licence. Thinking I spent all the money for nothing. now i think i realize the money was not for the licence but for the dream to come true.

The era of the honda is coming to an end

2 more days and I will be stepping into my mystery transportation. I am buying a car from my uncle. I know its a 92' jeep...and it runs "fine". I hope fine means runs well enough to get jen and i from NM to OH.

I have been overwelmed this weekend by my relationship with Jen. I just think how? How did I get so lucky to meet and fall in love with jen, and the kicker is she fell in love with me too. I am crazy about her. I can't help it.
And I could go on with all the cool other things about her but I will just say this...Our lives as humans are stained with our past and future. we make mistakes that to honestly display them makes us cringe. with all that God seems to look upon us and Give us mountains, poetry, art, beaches, the warmth of the sun, the renewing of the snow, the freshness of rain. He has given us life that is worth living, because he doesnt see our past and future as we see it, which i cant explain how he sees it i just know he sees us as princes and princesses in his amazing kingdom.

now back to jen and me, she sees me as a prince and i see her as a princess. that is truly God physical display of his love for us.

I am afriad to reread this, it probably makes to sense at all.

bytheway use my Google search, I have already earned $1.75 this month

I would name it the Mighty One, like the movie. Bike fever, I want to ride man. 

Has anyone ever seen the motorcycle diarys. It an amazing beautiful movie. Inspiring everyone to buy a bike and tour the unknown country. Really that movie and the book My side of the mountain make me want to explore, luckly Jen and I get to drive my new vehicle across the country in a week from sunday. New mexico to Ohio. We get to see the southwest the midwest, half the world pretty much. I cant wait to get away from the wet cold for a while.

5 hours of Silence

My experiment needed to be conducted somewhere I could be entirely alone. the onlyplace i could think of was a Park or something, I ended up going to SharonWoods. I spent the first hour and a half out side. sitting, snaking on some bread and water. I was just too distracted be the cold to let my mind quiet itself. I walked around a bit, then sat in my car. which interesting enough was a quiet and comfortable place, to spend the next 3 hours.
I kept fonding myself wanting to ask God for things, and pursue issues. I tried to just allow my thoughts to go to Him. Giving my request and worrys a rest and allow God to wisper to me what he wanted me to hear.
The time i spent was different...I didnt get any revelations or hear any thunderus Voice of God, I think what I learned was I cant have a relationship with God if I am always talking and I need to trust God with my life, I think by praying I get a false sense that I am helping the situation. its like i start thinking well now I havent left it entirely in Gods hands, cause I had a part by praying.
I guess really my time was...fun. Me and God had fun. we didnt do anything, just had fun.

Solitude

Today I will experiment for a couple of hours. I will go be completely alone. I will deprive myself from inputs. No bible, no music, no books, no voices. I am bringing my journal to write down any thought that God will hopefully give me.

also, has anybody ever read the book My Side of the Mountain. Its amazing. I read it cover to cover last night. So good.

I have found an amazing web site. FrugalReader.com check it out.

two worlds in one

The devils greatest trick is convincing the world he doesnt exist.
More thoughts to come...

So I in a coffee shop, Comfortable, quiet, clean,...and because of a coupon, cheap. The sun shines on finely kept grass, clean roads, and new appealing buildings. people walk in and are greated with smiles, music in the backround calms your mind. thoughts are lost in coffee and goodness radiates from all directions wether phony or not. ON the other side of reality...Lives are being torn apart because of selfish actions, lies, lust. We cry and fight and get angry, with the direction we are on but do nothing to change that direction. this is the reality we hide with coffee shops and noise, wether audible or visual, or functions to distract. nobody goes to see the problems, we want to see the lie. A lie has always been an easy person to introduce, never to get to know.

Tired of this

Well I did it again. I started a new blog, I lost the address to my others so we will see how this goes.

Wow last night was an eye opener. I know that people can have a lot of crap go on in their life but last night I got a personal contact with it. The Pub. My friends going through relationship complications, that I don't cant understand, I don't think they understand. I seems to me that they are stuck in a relationship rut and just wont get out.

yeah I need reminders of that...If I didn't I would forget that life exist out side of my little world of engagement,school, money and friends.