Well I just read my comments from my last blog and i realized how much i dont see anyone i dont work with or go to school with. I got to see jed and brian this week but other than that, nothing. My scheldule is so busy right now. I have so many tasks that need to be finished. I talked to my dad yesterday and he reminded me of a obvious truth...THIS IS NOT HEAVEN. bold and edgy. yes i am not in heaven this is not like heaven and will not turn into heaven by working harder and wiating longer. This life is work. I must not get confused and frustrated that "God seems to have it out for me" (I don't think that most of the time), but i need to think why do i try to make this life heaven, why don't i wait for heaven and not pretend it is someting it isnt.
Well my explination is this. I am impatient. I want the good to come and because i cant make God grant my every wish like a genie in a bottle, I use my own abilitys to be my own God. Which very quickly falls apart and The cycle continues until I can get over the fact that 100% of the time i need God.
By the way i miss all of you guys and sooner than we expect eternity in heaven will come.
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hey, nice to see you blogging!
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